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[singing starts] ~ I’m leaving on a jet plane, don’t know when I’ll be back again … Oh babe, I hate to go … [singing fades] *DAMN IT* I can’t blog! Where the hell did the all the thoughts go?! Under my mattress or in my closet?

I believed this is another symptom of anxiety too. Got really frustrated with the slow coach internet too. >.<" Everything is lagging! Can't even check my mails as the page only loads half. No more maple! It lags like hell! Sigh. Bad ass earthquake which recently happened in the coast of Taiwan caused the internet to be haywired for days or maybe weeks! Poor Taiwanese had to accept this bad luck at the end of the year 2006.

Back to the main topic. I’ll be leaving for KL tomorrow morning after breakfast. Time moves like flashing of lightnings! It’s 3 days from now to the New Year of 2oo7! And I’ll be celebrating a new year in a new place in a new season for once in my life. How sad it is to be away from home sweet home for a homely person like me. *sob* I just can’t stop thinking about it and it drives me nuts! zZzZz

Well, I ain’t gonna blog any longer. Wish me luck (don’t be so bad wish me bad luck la) *thanks* and Chiaoz

p/s : Didi, where are you? Still not online yet? Drop me a msg in msn okie?

Interesting. Let’s check the time now : it’s 415am! Is this crazy or something? I’m waking up at odd hours just to sit here and start blogging again or even chatting and maple-ing? *nuts* Well, I had tummy ache earlier and it’s really bad that I had to go clear up. Guessed that’s another sign of anxiety? zZzZz Not even giving me a good night sleep! >.<" Sigh.

I’m just counting down the days to New Year! 2oo7! Nah, I’m counting the days which I’m still be here in my home sweet home, that is 3 more days for me to enjoy the homely feeling. I’m gonna miss home so badly! Gosh >.<" I just can't stop thinking of these tear-jerking feelings. Maybe I shouldn't have chosen KL as my destination, but a nearer ranged place like the Pearl of the Orient? Or maybe this is a good chance and good experience for me to be independent instead of living as a burden to my parents?

As what I’d thought, I think it’s better for me to leave for a moment (3 years are quite short compared to my age - years of living at home), at least I will encounter lots and lotsa different kind of people, experiences, and whatever that appears to be a challenge and bla bla bla. I just hope everything will be flowing as smooth as pouring wine into a glass - nice and smooth. Not as if it would happen that way, as I know. Someone might give you a hitch while you’re pouring the wine. The glass might drop and break into pieces. If you get what I’d meant =)

Oh well, 500am already. I’m getting a little sleepy. Maybe abit of maple-ing is fair enough to be playing now Haha. Alright, I’m off. Chiaoz

p/s : Didi, where the hell are you? Been waiting for you for like an hour? Nite nite to you!

It’s already the rush hour for Mr. C to get his sleigh and the presents ready for his once-a-year-trip around the whole world by 12am! He delivers presents to everyone, an I right? I hope he does ^.^ I just finished watching Polar Express on (errr SMV? or HBO? I don’t quite remember =P) and it was a nice Christmas Movie (in fact, all Xmas shows are worth watching ^^).

Christmas is a wonderful day to celebrate though I’m not a Christian or whatsoever. I just enjoyed the feel of Christmas where we do lotsa activities like exchange gifts, setting up a perfect Xmas tree, watching nice Xmas shows, hanging out with lotsa friends chit-chatting and stuffs, and looking at fake Mr. C walking around with fake bellies and white beard! Haha Oh yah, Xmas eve is a lucky day for my Steven Didi as he and his team mates won the DotA Competition! Gratz to you! That’s a very special Xmas present you’d got there

Every year’s today, every single person in my family will have to buy a present as to exchange among us (we make it like a lucky draw thingy where you’d got to pick a number from a little box). It was fun especially when you’d got a box of chocolate (food, to be exact) and it’s a terrible letdown if you’d got the present that is from you! LoL! Anyway, you can make a new draw though but if you’re the last one to draw then you’ll have to take it! Hahaha!

But, ever since last year, Xmas has been a little moody to be celebrating it. My unfortunate Uncle passed away last December and nobody is in the mood for Xmas =/ Well, time passes real fast and there’s today = Xmas Eve! And, it’s a monotonous Xmas this year =/ We’re not even celebrating it, no Xmas tree, no Xmas presents, no plans for Xmas and NOTHING! Kinda cheerless and there’s no fun at all =/ I’m just staying at home blogging and chatting (I’m gonna go play MapleStory later though *evil grin*).

I’m not even feeling a little happy neither on a Xmas eve nor on the exact day. I’m just feeling sad and not in the mood for anything. Like I’m not myself. A frown, a fake smile and a I-don’t-know-what-to-do tag on my forehead each time I look myself in the mirror. That’s just not what as I expected for a Xmas! Sigh *shakes head*

Oh well, this is part of life. Face it! It’s not that bad for being alone for Xmas, at least I still have Didi and JimmyBoi to chat with, MapleStory to play with and fireworks to look at. Uhm, that’s all for now I guess. Chiaoz

Darn it! What’s the time again? 230am! What the hell? My state of mind is currently producing lots and lotsa “mixed up” feelings into my fragile medula oblongata, causing me to have an unsmiling face at this wee hour of the day (again). I was supposed to be sleeping earlier but was having fun-less in MapleStory as the server is freeging laggy! Dragged myself to sit on this chair for hours and yet I’m still here sitting and chatting with my beloved Didi (Thanks alot Didi, you really cheered me up.) and Kylan korkor who’s making me confusing and went missing >.<" and Chris who went offline all of a sudden! [>.<]" and Kah Weng who needs a talk to ease himself down :)

Thinking of leaving home undoubtedly digs my heart out. Perhaps I ain’t ready for this kinda situation? *shrugs* Or maybe that I’m afraid to leave home and being all alone in a room of an unknown house? Or having 3 meals each day without any of my closest ones who are sharing the same flesh and blood as mine? Or thinking of the familiar sounds and sweet voices that can’t never be forgotten? Maybe thoughts of sweet memories with the cutest baby of all in the whole wide world? Or looking at some cute little furry rascals which will remind me of a whole-body-itching-doggie?

Even though, leaving home for a 3-year duration and I’m aware that I will always be following my bro-in-law-to-be (my guardian Kor) to be back at my hometown because my sister is still in Penang! And thing is, I have a “guardian” who is my Kor, over there to look over me! Why am I acting so not-like-myself? This is crazy! I know this is the silly part after you’ve read the above. This is just what I am thinking for these few days. Maybe this is a so-called growing up track? As in from a homely to a independent girl? It’s an enormous parcel to lift on this poor girl’s backpack (already having hunch back, and now added some weight onto it, how would it be?). I’m hoping that she will get through it and everything will be ok.

Let’s check out the time - 415am! What the hell am I doing? Took almost 2 hours just to type out 4 paragraphs? And Kor popped out suddenly in MSN! Giving me advises and of course warnings too! As in taking part with truancy? lolz! I mean : if ever I’m facing any hot water which will be flowing towards me out of nowhere! And Kor, I will definitely obey to your so-called RULES and indeed I am gonna be looking for you if there’s anything I need from you and will be asking you tonnes of stupid questions if I ever found them unsolved! Haha!

My mood has turned adversely into a better feel with a little smile on my face. Thanks to Didi again You made my day (though the sun is still hasn’t rise yet) much brighter with your sweet adorable thoughts. JieJie won’t be forgetting this night de, which I totally can’t sleeep at all and you are here to accompany me! ^^

I think it’s time for me to go back to my bed, which I would be missing it! But I doubt it, cos I’m bringing my pillows and bolster and blankie with me! Hahaha No worries about the word “can’t sleep” anymore (tonight is an exceptional case =P) Guess that’s all for now I shall hop into my bed soon enough (at least after a game of Gunbound, cos I’d just downloaded it) Good Nitez! Chiaoz

4 more days to Xmas! I have no idea why am I so excited about Xmas. I’m not even a Christian at all, not living on a 4 seasons country too (where there’s snow!). I guess I’m crazy lol yes I am XD

Let’s just listen to a Xmas song that I like the most. It’s called : Frosty the Snowman

Here’s the lyrics in case you doesn’t know how to sing! Wahahaha XD

Frosty the Snowman, was a jolly happy soul,

With a corncob pipe and a button nose, and two eyes made of coal.

Frosty the Snowman, is a fairytale, they say.

He was made of snow, but the children know how he came to life one day.

There must have been some magic in that old silk that they found,

For when they placed it on his head, he began to dance around!

Oh, Frosty, the Snowman, was alive as he could be;

and the children say he could laugh and play,

just the same as you and me.

Frosty the Snowman, knew the sun was hot that day,

so he said, “Let’s run, and we’ll have some fun now, before I melt away.”

Down to the village, with a brooomstick in his hand,

Running here and there, all around the square,

sayin’, “Catch me if you can.”

He led them down the streets of town, right to the traffic cop;

and only paused a moment, when he heard him holler, “Stop!”

For Frosty, the Snowman, had to hurry on his way,

But he waved goodbye, sayin’ “Don’t cry, I’ll be back again some day.”

Thumpety thump, thump, thumpety thump, thump,

look at Frosty go.

Thumpety thump, thump, thumpety thump, thump,

over the hills of snow.

Have Fun Christmas-ing ^.^ Chiaoz