Darn it! What’s the time again? 230am! What the hell? My state of mind is currently producing lots and lotsa “mixed up” feelings into my fragile medula oblongata, causing me to have an unsmiling face at this wee hour of the day (again). I was supposed to be sleeping earlier but was having fun-less in MapleStory as the server is freeging laggy! Dragged myself to sit on this chair for hours and yet I’m still here sitting and chatting with my beloved Didi (Thanks alot Didi, you really cheered me up.) and Kylan korkor who’s making me confusing and went missing >.<" and Chris who went offline all of a sudden! [>.<]" and Kah Weng who needs a talk to ease himself down :)

Thinking of leaving home undoubtedly digs my heart out. Perhaps I ain’t ready for this kinda situation? *shrugs* Or maybe that I’m afraid to leave home and being all alone in a room of an unknown house? Or having 3 meals each day without any of my closest ones who are sharing the same flesh and blood as mine? Or thinking of the familiar sounds and sweet voices that can’t never be forgotten? Maybe thoughts of sweet memories with the cutest baby of all in the whole wide world? Or looking at some cute little furry rascals which will remind me of a whole-body-itching-doggie?

Even though, leaving home for a 3-year duration and I’m aware that I will always be following my bro-in-law-to-be (my guardian Kor) to be back at my hometown because my sister is still in Penang! And thing is, I have a “guardian” who is my Kor, over there to look over me! Why am I acting so not-like-myself? This is crazy! I know this is the silly part after you’ve read the above. This is just what I am thinking for these few days. Maybe this is a so-called growing up track? As in from a homely to a independent girl? It’s an enormous parcel to lift on this poor girl’s backpack (already having hunch back, and now added some weight onto it, how would it be?). I’m hoping that she will get through it and everything will be ok.

Let’s check out the time - 415am! What the hell am I doing? Took almost 2 hours just to type out 4 paragraphs? And Kor popped out suddenly in MSN! Giving me advises and of course warnings too! As in taking part with truancy? lolz! I mean : if ever I’m facing any hot water which will be flowing towards me out of nowhere! And Kor, I will definitely obey to your so-called RULES and indeed I am gonna be looking for you if there’s anything I need from you and will be asking you tonnes of stupid questions if I ever found them unsolved! Haha!

My mood has turned adversely into a better feel with a little smile on my face. Thanks to Didi again :) You made my day (though the sun is still hasn’t rise yet) much brighter with your sweet adorable thoughts. JieJie won’t be forgetting this night de, which I totally can’t sleeep at all and you are here to accompany me! ^^

I think it’s time for me to go back to my bed, which I would be missing it! But I doubt it, cos I’m bringing my pillows and bolster and blankie with me! Hahaha :D No worries about the word “can’t sleep” anymore (tonight is an exceptional case =P) Guess that’s all for now :) I shall hop into my bed soon enough (at least after a game of Gunbound, cos I’d just downloaded it) :P Good Nitez! Chiaoz ;)