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Hari ni aku bertemu ngan askar2 gerila masa dlu, iaitu Pak Syukor, Pak Mamat dgn Makcik Atom. Ni peluang yg aku tak pernah nak expectkan. Smua ni pun thanks to Fahmi Reza la, kalo dia tak buat benda2 ni, kita takkan berjumpa hero2 dan heroin2 dan takkan tau apa yg depa hadapi dulu. Perasaan tu mmg susah ah nak explain.

Rugi laa, Fahmi interviewed Pak Mamat dgn Makcik Atom semalam. Kalo tak mesti dtg ah.

Pakcik2 dgn makcik ni pun dah tua2 belaka. Cuba bayangkan depa ni pejuang2 tanahair kita ni, berjuang demi “merdeka” (bebas dr pihak British). Pak Syukor kata depa tu berjuang tanpa mengira kaum, “Melayu ada, India ada, Tionghua ada.”

Hari ni Fahmi buatkan sesi temubual dgn Pak Syukor dalam slot SRM (Sekolah Revolusi Malaya). Masa Pak Syukor tiba mini dewan tu, aku rasa terharu dapat berjumpa dgn beliau. Pak Syukor pun dah berumur genap 80tahun, tapi aku rasa beliau ada masalah nak berjalan la sbb masa dtg pun guna wheelchair. Tapi beliau masih lagi bersemangat menceritakan kisah2 revolusi dgn suara yg lantang. Maklumla, beliau banyak bercakap utk mendptkan org kumpulannya. Banyak yg dia ceritakan kpd kita semua la, terutamanya kpd sesiapa yg tak sedar ttg perkara2 yg telah berlaku 10 tahun sebelum merdeka. Ini la perspektif yg lain pasal Jepun, pasal British dan juga pasal cara2 Raja2 Melayu dlu.

Pak Syukor kata dia tak pernah kena tembak, maksud aku, peluru tak masuk badan la. Beliau bersyukur la kpd Tuhan. Pak Syukor kata bhw Pak Mamat ada peluru lagi dlm badan beliau. Aku salute habih2.

Masa memang tak mencukupi la, sesi SRM ni hanya setakat 1 jam setengah ja (aku rasa 30min dipanjangkan). Finally, Pak Mamat dtg ke depan utk beri sepatah dua. Pak Mamat membuka ucapannya dgn Assalammualaikum. Terkejut aku, sbb beliau bukannya Melayu, bukannya Islam. Tapi aku rasa itu sbg satu pembukaan la. Pak Mamat berharap generasi muda ni menghargai segala struggle yang beliau dan ahli2 gerila yg lain ah. Bukan setakat baca buku Sejarah ja, tapi try to look out for the untold history. Apa2 yang Pak Mamat ckpkan ni mmg membuatkan aku terharu ah.

Aku dgn tadak kamera dgn videocam, tak leh nak rakamkan seluruh wawancara Fahmi dgn Pak Syukor. Pakai handset aku tu pun cam teruk ja. Aku hanya berharap Fahmi akan uploadkan/youtubekan video2 sesi SRM. Boleh la kita sama2 berkongsi pengalaman ahli2 gerila waktu itu.

Sat lagi pukul 6, Au Heng Fung pulak dtg, rugi lagi, tak leh nak tengok Pakcik ni… Sian betul..

Habih crita aku. Sharwin, masa hang balik PJ nanti, kita bleh la berbincang2 pasal ni ah.

Now that the untold stories are revealed, what do people think about it? What do you think about it? What are the people’s reactions after knowing the unrevealed history? See, when we were travelling in the LRT heading back to PJ, it came up to a mind of a friend stating that people are naturally routine, wake up in the morning, go to the LRT station, go to work, go to LRT station, go back home, sleep and this goes on and on for the next few decades. All that for a single word “survival.” And a question came up to me “Do you these people care about the untold history which happened to our tanahair 60 years ago?” Yes, they might think that it’s unfair for the fighters to not have their parts of the story in our Sejarah Malaysia. This might be true for certain group of ignorant citizens (I guess this group is the majority) and only depend on the education to get knowledge without having doubts. One of the values I can think of is “racism” and especially when Perlembagaan Rakyat was rejected. They (came from all kinds of races) fought effortlessly for one revolutional cause. They struggled too much all for Bangsa Melayu. Don’t get yourself wrong, Bangsa Melayu was originally meant for everyone (no matter which race they are, it’s more like a concept of one-identity). I’m gonna end this post with this video by Fahmi Reza (lots more in YouTube). Bangsa Melayu is better explained in this clip.

Sometimes you’re just a retard, don’t you just realize that? Can’t you make a sensible decision at least just for once? What’s wrong if you wait for a moment or so, so that we all can do things together? It’s nothing hard. It’s nothing troublesome. Why would you cause unnecessary fuss, unnecessary annoyance? Just think before you make any speech and be humble. It’s rather weird and awkward to have you by my side, to have your presence since you often prefer to isolate yourself even though we’re together for outings.

Anyway, let’s all see how goofy you’ll be.

I’ve never expected to go through such breakdown(s) in a matter of days. Being in the state I am now requires some time to fix them. As the saying goes “time will heal.” It’s a convincing sentence that brings hope and I buy that.

I shouldn’t have been so numb. I shouldn’t have been so ignorant. I shouldn’t have been so careless. I shouldn’t have been so moronic.

But all done is done.

Unfortunate things always come in a row. We all knew this fact, don’t we?

My windows are broken. Was super excited to install NFS Pro Street and suddenly *dooop* the computer restarted. Thanks to a pop-up alert and windows is dead.

It’s good to have you back. It’s tearing up my heart on the days that you’ve been gone. I’ll never let loose of the grip again, never ever.

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Anyway, let’s go throw rocks, shall we? =P

Today’s proposal’s deadline.

Some still struggling to get it done at this moment. Some already handed in even before the expiry date. Some ready to hand it hours later and having a good time sleeping.

I procrastinated during the holidays. I was clueless for my thesis. I didn’t even want to care about it until last Monday.

I finally pinned up a topic and worked out a proposal. It’s done and it’s now in hard-copy, nicely located inside my file.

BUT, I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep! Arghh!