When you’ve said something you shouldn’t have said, when you’ve done something you shouldn’t have done. Whether you did it on purpose or unintentionally, it happens. And people act differently depending on what the other person have said, how serious the utterance was, whose mouth the utterance was released and etc. It’s totally awful if you’re the victim especially when the offender didn’t notice such dreadful words. Having experienced being both the sinner and the sufferer made you realize how you were insulted and how you’ve insulted others. Til you finally realized it, you were too remorseful and it isn’t a good excuse because you could’ve avoid saying (or doing) to avoid the remorse feeling. Humans are silly. Things you think it’s a joke, it’s not to others and vice versa. Just like how the saying goes “one man’s rubbish is another man’s gold.”

I regret.

I’m sorry and I really mean it.

Reading about you really tires me emotionally. Every posts made me reflect to the emotions that I’ve been through lately. I’ve had too much of this, I wonder how long I can hold this. I watched “Bicentinnial Man” a moment ago and I find it very interesting and moving. And so I let go my sorrow to flow down with the tears. I really miss home, I really do.

It was totally unexpected, I was fearful, really I was. I held back my emotions because I know that you’ll be alright. Only now that we’ve got to know as it didn’t seem like you’re facing such big a mess. I felt bad for being a less-caring friend but then again..

Being nice and polite to people doesn’t really matter to some people. People being sarcastic and shoot you back right in your face. What’s the point of being courteous? Why care so much when people aren’t gonna appreciate it?

I WANNA GO HOME!!!

To become more enlightened, you need to open your mind to scientific ideas, and you need to learn more about the history of philosophy and the various religious traditions. Then you will have the knowledge to form your own educated opinions. However, you should never think that you know enough to impose your opinions on anyone else.

Socrates said that the secret to being wise was to realize that we really do not know much. Everybody wants to think that what they believe is right, and they cling to the beliefs they are familiar with, even when they do not fully understand the issues. It takes a great deal of humility to admit the limits of your knowledge.

Should try reading this: http://www.evolutionary-metaphysics.net/index.html

Days after the holidays never been better all this while. I always know that. What’s more if you’re having presentations right after the holidays. Never even do anything during the break, only started the night before. Back to school now with lots and lots and lots of assignments. I’m guessing there’ll be sleepless nights waiting for me. Sigh. Work’s been rejected and I’ve gotta re-do and I’ve only got 3 weeks time. Not a good idea that is. Super sigh. This is really devastating.

The celebration of MooMoo Year was pretty good, except that we’ve missed the Lion Dance. I haven’t seen one yet and I guess I won’t be seeing it until next CNY. Running out of time, that explains why. I spent most of the nights sleeping over at sis’s place since Ryan always asked me to. He’s such an adorable boy. I’m missing him and missing home already.

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Done with donation blood on last Friday, 16th Jan which is Dad’s birthday too. It’s been 3 years that I couldn’t celebrate dad’s ‘ngau yat’ (birthday in Cantonese), only wished him via handphone. At least, it’s better than none I’m so anticipating this coming CNY. Why? Cos I get to go home to be with everybody else!! That’s the most exciting part, of course the New Year brings joy too

Anyway back to topic - blood donation. Met Deb too, just like last year when we went there together with Teng. The first time was 360ml and this time the doctor said “you donate 450ml, it’s according to your weight” and so I nodded to him. I supposed what he said was right. Something bothers me, usually people associate blood donation to 1 pint. Exactly how much ml in a pint? I googled and found out that 1 pint is different according to countries. One says it’s 473.2ml, other says it’s 550ml. Such confusing measurement. Actually I don’t really care, ml works fine for all kinds of liquid. ;P

So long didn’t open this blogpage dy. Sorry ah guys, didn’t visit blogs during the holiday. Btw, Happy New Year. Too late to wish, I know. Holiday ma, got time also go play with Ryan la. So many other fun things to do with mom, dad and chey at home, where got time to blog leh. Oh ya, I spent every nights watching Journey To The West, sleeping in the living hall. Silly me, haha. Mom always ask me to my own room to sleep cos she said she couldn’t sweep the floor every morning. Hehe.

School started la, 3rd year now, which means it’s the last year studying in Utar. Everyone including me now struggling for Fyp, so much research to do. I’m not complaining, just ranting only. This time, the schedule is a little bit problematic cos classes end at 6 on Monday and 730 on Thursday. We all hated classes that end late, especially those who take public buses to go home. Pity them, girls should be home before it’s dark, unless got car la. But, still have to be home early. Dangerous ma. Paling benci classes on Saturday also. Eeeee! The same lecturer again, wonder what kinda faces she gonna show us this coming Saturday. Hopefully she’d changed and will do her part-time lecturing seriously. Tuesday and Wednesday are off-days. I’d rather they push Thursday’s and Friday’s classes to Tuesday and Wednesday, then we’ll have a longer weekend. But then again, we can’t make any changes also la. Just gotta accept it.

A blood-donation-campaign notice caught my eyes on the first day back to school. Luckily it’s held at PB block this coming Thursday and Friday. I’ve been waiting for this quite long dy. Now came a chance for me to go donate my blood. How can a person be so excited to do blood donation? I’m really silly. If anyone wants to join me, let me know la, we all go together-gether. Hehe.

Back to school brings homesick feeling. Sigh.

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